My latest obsession.

The past 2 weeks have been filled with great times catching up with old friends and hanging out with new ones. The single life has been hard to adjust to, but I'm so happy to have such a great supportive family and understanding friends. I've started taking pictures again (finally!) and will be more than happy to document my nights and share with you all as soon as I can. I uploaded my pictures on to my friend Natasha's computer and haven't had time to blog them yet, but they're coming soon, I promise. I'm at the library right now, otherwise it would be done already.

I'm very happy to report that I have started going back to the gym! I was pretty faithful right after I got my Gold's pass a few months ago, and I even went over Thanksgiving break while I was at home. I know I know...who goes after a holiday weekend spent eating a ton of food? Well, I do. I started to feel better about myself in a way that I never have before. Not that I feel like I need to lose weight or anything, I just didn't feel healthy. Anyway, after I got back to Utah I went twice more at the beginning of December, and then got out of the habit and didn't go back. Until this week, and I'm already addicted again. I love being there. I am building up my endurance with running everyday and each day I switch off between weights/circuit excercises and abs/pilates. It is AMAZING. I'm currently very sore since it's my first week back, but it's so worth it.

I've always hated running, mostly because I'm naturally more of a sprinter than a long distance kind of person. But since I've actually put some effort into it, I really enjoy it now. When I can't run as long as I want to, I get kind of mad at myself for not sucking it up. I used to only be able to run for literally 2 minutes and I had to stop and my throat would hurt and I'd get a side ache...haha yeah I was pathetic. Now I can run a good 1.5-2 miles without stopping, which is a huge accomplishment for me. And I love that I'm getting better about speeding up my mph as I go farther.

I'm kind of stressed out with life at the moment, and I'd love more than anything to be running. It's so nice to just blast music and run your worries away and/or have time to think about everything. I think the thing I love the most about me working out is the fact that it's had a part in making me a little more comfortable with myself. The first time I stepped foot in a gym, it was instant anxiety. I felt so out of place and dumb because I didn't know how to do anything. But then you realize that no one is looking at you as much as you think, everyone is there for the same reasons, and it's just some really good time to focus on yourself. Now I'm a little more confident and I don't really care if anyone's watching me or not, and that habit has overlapped into other areas in my life. It's also helped me push myself a little bit harder and helped me realize I can do a lot more than I think I can.

Well I must be going, but like I said I will update you all with pictures soon!